I’m blown away by people’s thoughts and feelings. One girl shared with me that it was exactly what she needed to hear today. It gave her a sense of peace and being loved and taken cared by. Another friend told me these stories made him feel a physical sense of warmth of history that he hadn’t felt for a while. I’m also touched by the stories and thoughts visitors shared (in the image 3 above).

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    At the end of the day, it’s not about what I do or how perfect my work is, but the work speaks for itself. And I’m just surprised and humbled by it.

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    I’m forever grateful and ever more grateful for the little faith I still have to keep me going on this journey. It’s what made me an outgoing and bubbly person; it is what made me not having to worry about how unconfident, self-doubting, indecisive, unwise I am; it is what made me the person I am today.

 

    No matter how different my path is comparing to most people in my circumstance, no matter how uncertain the future lies, no matter how scared and depressed I feel, there is love that’s the bottle of the ocean that is just there, being the bottom (to quote Iain). It’s that love that has been carrying me on its back every day; it’s that love that filled my heart in Kolkata; it is that love that opened my ears and the eyes of my heart to really listen without judging; it is that love that makes me reject a more certain path when it doesn’t align with my heart desire.

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    Am I still scared and struggling?

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    Oh yeah. Oh yeah. Most of the time.

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    But the bottom is always and I know it will always be there.

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    Thank you, my anchor, for holding me there. Thank you, my life, for being so much more than I could have planned.

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Love,
Scared Yiyi

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